Flashpoints of Awareness is a light summary of personal experiences and pratfalls with their corrections. It is Tarra’s hope that these stories will serve you in some way and perhaps expand your awareness and sense of well-being.

Imagine yourself sitting peacefully when, to your left, two electric bluish-white rays of light form and suddenly you are hearing the following words in your mind: “Life as you know it on planet Earth will not continue to be the same unless humans change the way they are living.”

The year is 1973, and you’re encouraged to leave the Peace Corps and return to the States and share this message. Tarra spent the intervening years searching for answers but failed to find a resolution. Her journey led her to become a psychotherapist where she started to recover and discovered the power of forgiveness. Through her efforts to “save the world” she came to recognize that the world does not need saving. Rather, we do.

After twenty-eight years, Tarra Judson Stariell is retired and starting a new chapter. She promised her clients she wouldn’t write about their experiences, so instead she’s sharing some of the lessons she has learned within these pages..

Sanity: Lost & Found is a memoir that reads like a novel. Using the story of the author’s life as the backdrop, she offers a better understanding of how our childhood experiences impact us, how we become shame-based and what can happen when we do and how resiliency, compassion and forgiveness are what it takes to heal from the vicissitudes we all face in life.

Raised on a southern California ranch, a lost child amidst the angst of her parents, she joins the Peace Corps In the turbulent 70’s and immersed herself in the culture of the South American country she was serving. Embracing their mysticism, she unexpectedly witnessed the presence of two rays of light that brought a flooding of information into her mind. Told that “life on planet earth will not continue to be the same if humans do not change the way they are living” the author was then asked to return to the United States and share this message. Thinking her “mission” was to spread this message and save the world, after trial and error, she fell prey to a man who uniquely validated her and agreed to help her spread the message.

The author spent the next decade and more as an abused woman, controlled by his illness and her own disassociation from reality, leaving and returning to him in a textbook-case manner. How she found the strength to extricate herself, to heal, and ultimately help others is both frightening and inspirational. Tarra has now returned to southern California where she assists others to find peace, harmony, and fulfillment in their lives.

Simultaneously recognizable and horrifying, we see parts of ourselves and our own vulnerabilities in this compelling story of one woman’s descent into and climb out of the abyss. Her process helps us discover how we become victims of our own irrationality, what makes us vulnerable to the predators among us and how to stop the erosion of our self-worth.